Resentment

I was full of resentment
muttering under my breath
feeling like i was wasting my time

because i could have been being productive
i could have been working on my projects
i could have been… spending that time alone
reflecting…
creatively thinking…

i was full of resentment
acting in a way that i thought was desired
because a relationship, in my mind
was like 2 people glued together

but i needed that space to sit with my own thoughts
i didn’t know how to both crave the company
and live productively.
at times i wanted quality time
but the time didn’t feel like quality

i didn’t know you
i tried to know you
i tried to change you
i tried to accept you
but at the end of the day
i think it’s best that we went our different ways